15.03.2024

The love of my life got down on one knee and asked me to marry him. It was a Friday morning and he had organised a beautiful picnic in Noosa on the Sunshine Coast. The weather was perfect, the scenery was incredible and every single decision he made was everything I could have asked for.

Now this is a space for me to be open and vulnerable, so I will share some more intimate details about the past few months. My partner has been engaged before, it obviously ended and the flow on effect that came with that engagement ending and entering a new relationship was REAL. The thing we don’t realise in our twenties is our actions have consequences and the reality is, relationship breakdowns cause a lot of trauma and require active healing for a long time. It is just not as simple as ‘oh I have a new partner, all is well.’

We’re in our thirties now and both of us have had to unravel long term, extremely committed relationships together while we moved forward into becoming each others forever, but my husband to be is my favourite human on this planet and there is no one I would rather unpack and heal the hurt others have inflicted with.

While we have both made questionable decisions and could have handled many things with more integrity and honesty, we’re still both learning about ourselves and each other. The beautiful thing about the mistakes we make is that we get to learn and grow from them.

And let’s take a moment to appreciate the petty side of growth. The ‘look what I have without you’ part of the healing process. Let’s take a moment to acknowledge and understand that sometimes you just want to shove it in everyone who doubted yous face and make it abundantly clear that we found happiness without them.

The petty side of Sarah gets to show off the single most incredible diamond I have ever seen, every single day, for the rest of my life. And yes, it is bigger and it is in my humble opinion an upgrade.

My favourite thing though, the diamond from the first ring is set in a platinum necklace which I adore and also wear every, single, day.

Being your partners unconditional everything comes with some sacrifices. You must have forgiveness and find space to compromise on things you may not have accepted in another life.

A prime example…

We’ve already planned our wedding. Months before getting engaged we had finalised, booked and paid for most of it. The reason behind this was it was uncomfortable for my now fiancé to be open to the prospect of being engaged again. In his experience, being engaged doesn’t work out, so in his reality it just was not something he wanted to to do again. It was awkward planning a wedding without a ring and a fiancé, but for the sake of his comfortability and our marriage, it was a very small price to pay on my behalf.

A second example..

We’re having a very small and intimate wedding. My family dynamic is uncomfortable and the awkwardness planning this wedding has bought up for me has been a really difficult path to navigate. The compromise we made in reverse, for me, has been to change the ‘normal’ wedding day dynamic. I will share more on the changes we have made at a later stage, but for now trust that there is not a lot of tradition going into our wedding day, and I am for it.

I am so excited to share this journey with anyone who is open to reading it. Writing this blog has really helped me open up in becoming comfortable to share things that were slowly eating me up inside and the level of support I have received has been really beautiful. So thank you for being here.

Off to live my best Island life for another few days with my fiancé.

Sarah x