I listen to a lot of true crime podcasts. Like, my played count is in the hundreds of episodes.

I have listened to mass murders, family annihilators, cult leaders, modern age, old stories, all of it. I have watched countless documentaries about awful crimes. But the one topic that really constantly gets me is cults. In particular the Twin Flame Universe.

I don’t know if it’s because I have an understanding about what they’re saying, but their concept on twin flames and relationships really irks me to my core. I feel physically nauseated after episode two of the Netflix documentary and I actually had to turn it off before I went and hide in my closet for the rest of eternity.

Spiritual connection should be empowering.

To me anyway, the concept of actually taking control of my own life and my own space by settling into my own energy is really what it should be about. No. You don’t have a single Twin Flame – what? And no. A Twin Flame is not your one single human being connection soul mate who you should stalk until you’re arrested or they decide to be with you – WHAT?!

The way I learnt – A twin flame is someone who ignites a mirror or a spark in you for a lesson. That’s it.

A soul mate isn’t a single life partner, a soul mate is someone you’re meant to cross paths with. I have a soul mate in my dog, in my friends, in my fiancé, in my Threads community. They’re just people who make you feel connected and alive.

And sure, maybe we were together in a past life. I am not well versed on past life connections and regressions. I looked into it once and I decided it is not my monkey, not my circus and I moved on. The business of that life is the business of that life – I am in the here and the now experiencing today and this is exactly where I plan to stay.

It infuriates me when people target desperation and exploit people who are struggling.

And this isn’t just in spirituality. This is in finance, property, corporations, drug use. All of it. The simple fact that society has buried people so deep and away from themselves and put all this nonsense pressure on human beings drives me up the wall.

I use personal experiences to read for people. I tell my own stories to make them feel less alone. The reason why I do this is because I always thought I was the only one going through these events which in reality, we all experience at one point or another in our lives. Whether it be past relationships, family issues, trauma, medical hardship, financial loss. We are not alone in any of this and people find strength in community and in sharing a collective experience.

Why when people reach out for help, does society use and abuse the vulnerability?

WHO RAISED YOU?! Why is it so foreign and abnormal to empower each other and lift each other up when we’re feeling a bit down. Since when did it become acceptable and okay to make people feel so insignificant and small that you can use them for your own egotistical and financial gain?

Watching, researching and even just knowing that this mentality exists makes my skin crawl. And to use something that is so personal to oneself against them?! I can’t.

It really makes me want to throw in the towel on everything I have started opening up about and talking about.

I’m at a loss today on how as a collective whole we got here, into a space where someone so vile can freely use and abuse people who just seek connection and friendship.

I don’t know. Someone please come and help me restore my faith in humanity because sometimes it just feels Ike a black hole of nothingness.

Sarah.